Thursday, April 9, 2009

Decisions are the Worst

I'm currently looking for employment, but it's hard because I'm not quite sure what I want to do.

I am really indecisive. When I have too many good opportunities, I freak out. I'm always worried because I want to pick the RIGHT one. The one that would make me the happiest. The one that is what I'm supposed to do. I just don't like making mistakes.

This is ultimately my problem - with life.

I don't like to miss out on anything. I've been like this since I was little. I didn't want to go to bed because I knew everyone else was awake, and I didn't want to miss out on the fun. I still can't go to sleep if I know my roomates are playing - even if it's 2 in the morning! It's worse though, because it's carried over into life. I can't do homework because I know my friends are getting together and I don't want to miss out on what they're doing. I can't choose a major, because then I'd be missing out on all of the other ones. I can't rent just one movie. I can't read just one book. If I let it, it could slide into my ENTIRE life. I wouldn't wear the same outfit, jewlery or purse more than once because there are simply too many to use - but I'll never have that kind of money...or vanity.

Anyway, if anyone can remedy my awful sickness, please help. Maybe I'll start a support group. And everyone will never miss a meeting because they'll be too afraid to miss out ;)

Oh, and if you know anyone hiring so I can make some mulah over the summer (AZ or UT) please let me know

1 comment:

Aubrey said...

Even though we are sisters I had no idea that we are so alike. I totally could have written this.

No remedies for you though. just commiseration.