Oh man....life never seems to slow down.

I've recently come to the conclusion that I still don't understand the way life goes. A lot of things have come up. A boy from highschool died, a little boy has a brain tumor, my roomate is trying to decide between a mission or marrying her boyfriend, I still have no clue what to do with my life and nothing seems to be slowing down. While a lot of these things tend to stress me out and make me sad, I feel happier than ever. All of them have shown me that I'm living! I'm experiencing, feeling and learning. That's all life is about.

I am loving life, but the idea that I'm growing up scares me. I don't like work, paying bills or thinking about what I'm going to do in years to come. I was happy bopping along without any worries. I guess I have to take the bad in with the good though. College has been great and I cannot imagine anyone not going because it is so important. I'm growing so much as a person. I just feel like I finally know what my priorities are. I did a service project the other day and it reminded me that I love serving other people, being away from my family helps me to remember how much I appreciate them and all of my classes are teaching me to think analytically and critically. I've matured a lot, but because I'm away, none of you get to see it. Then when I come home, I go back to being the obnoxious little sister because someone's got to fill the role. I am a smart and independent woman now. I love life and I look forward to what's in store for me.